” ~ wain~

: A Culinary House Production
: 4 years of college &
: 1 cup . cake
(4 mins 18 sec)

This is my newest film, which is about a ordinary student’s simple life. This is my most professional work so far. Every second and every frame is intentional and carries a message. I hope that you are watching this film with very high expectations, so be as critical as you can. Please give me your constructive criticism.

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轉載自 (明報) 02月 21日 星期三 05:10AM
港台製作電視節目 揚威海外

one day, i will work in RTHK.

Today I received a secret package. There are 3 things inside. One picture cutting out from a newspaper. One bag of some printed photos and one machanical watch.

Hmm… what do they mean? the picture indicates who is my next target; the photos shows some aspect of the life of my target; and the watch… alarm the time of execution.

but where is my weapon Q?

2:23 am. @ my room. Alright. Finished the very first rough draft of the film. Can’t say I m not discouraged by it. It came out exactly the way I imagined in my head. I may need to work on the angle and the continuity a bit more. But pretty much it did come out what I planned.

What is not working is really the story. And the way I m telling it. I admit it is not a solid story. My friend’s and my boss’s concern is right. And I m now finishing the film for the sake of finishing it. Not necessarily a bad thing. At least I treasure the learning process. I learned that what’s working and what’s not. My working altitude and hard work is correct. My vision maybe correct, that I need to hold it stronger next time. But my collaboration may not be right. Yes I do need other’s help and I do want team spirit. But IDEA has to be ONE. I could invite other’s contribution, but essentially that is my work. My idea. My film. My responsibility.

Added on Feb 13. 2:33am.
Finished my second draft. Its not THAT bad really. Besides the story and continuity as a whole, there are quite a lot of stuff I like in the film. After all, that’s really my first draft. Thanks to stephen: 好一句 “next project after this growth”. Yes, the next one will be better and is always better.

2:20am @my bed. How could I go to bed really… My brother just received a full 4 year scholarship, studying in the School of Policy, Planning and Development of University of Southern California! I am so proud of my brother! YAY!!!!!!!!!

I was a bit sick and about to go to bed right before he told me this happiest news of my life. I am still tired but I just want to write down all my thoughts before I let the excitements pass.

First, I swear, I will do my best to get into one of the film school in California. Partly because yes I do love filming and I should pursuit my passion, but partly because of the possibility of living with my brother and possibly our mother! Just having the thought we could bring our mother to live with us in the US, to show her around this world is fascinating. There is so much we can do! And the most valuable thing for me is I can show her what I experienced! Not only that tiny limited Hong Kong point of view. I have no attempt to change her “HK the best” perspective, but at least I could expand her knowledge about this world, about what culture is. And I am not alone anymore, having my brother nearby with me; we could take care each other and make our mom proud.

Yay, all of a sudden my stresses are gone and I feel less sick. This is the best news I ever have in life, even better when I got accepted to Carleton. (hmm… maybe equally excited when I got into UWC). It is interesting to see how my brother and my path diverge and converge again. For most of my childhood I was felt left behind his shadow. He has too much talent, charm, and hard work, and mine was not well-recognized. I have to defend myself that being a 11-ish smart child would accept what is unfairness in the world. I was always seeking the way out and constantly refused to do what my brother did, unless I was sure I can do better.

Among all my rebellion acts, THE most successful one must be the day that I got accepted from UWC. Still remember running up and down the Castle Road and Seymour Road, grabbing the acceptance letter from my friend’s fax machine, and screaming to my mom I was going to study in the US, without needing you any money. It wasn’t just about money. It is about finally I am being noticeable, to become outstanding, and to feel with pride and elation. There was nothing to share, I was leaving all alone. I was selfish. I misunderstood my mom’s wisdom and love. (I am crying writing this story because I am about to forgive myself, to put down the heaviest burden of my life…)

Now it is my brother’s turn to study in the US. And I am just truly happy for him. There’s no showing off or rebellion. It is all about enjoying and sharing our fruitful hard work. My brother deserves his admission, and so do us who deserve to feel proud and happy for him. There is no selfishness no more. Our family unites.

Good heart and work hard, education can change our lives.

《爱得太迟》写的是香港人的苦况；是要提醒香港人多留意，多爱惜身边的人。香港人为生计而工作，从最起码的朝八晚六到每晚加班捱夜，生活里头彷佛已失去了目标和意义。不单只没有时间享受跟亲友恋人相聚，就连放松的方法也不懂，自已的健康也照顾不了。正如歌词中所说「盲目地发奋 忙忙忙其实自私梦中也习惯 有压力要我得志」，努力工作的背后其实只是为着自己着想，根本没有想过能不能够和其它人分享。更可怕的是，连休息时间也用来习惯压力，不停想着如何如何成就事业，出人头地。　

自问的确脱离了香港人的压力圈很久了。很庆幸自己能明白工作只会带来生活中三分之一的快乐，其它的由则家人和朋友满满的填好。对于《爱得太迟》写的处境我只会明白了解，却未必会有很深的共鸣。但唯独是这两句：「人人在发奋 想起他朝都兴奋　但今晚未过 你要过也很吸引」，每次唱着听着，总是刺中自己最深处的弊端，心头总是在打颤。我常常计划这个准备那个，担心这个想象那个，很容易就会很兴奋很期待，有压力有烦燥，却根本没有为着现现在在这一刻努力，努力为着这一刻过得有意义一点，开心一点。的而且确，今晚未过想着他朝又有何用呢？这两句淡淡的句子，却是我最深刻的警惕。