” ~ wain~

9:18pm @Scoville. I saw “A Beautiful Mind” again. It’s a coincident that 3 years ago I saw the same movie around this time of the year. I was so much in love back then. I loved the movie, I still remember on the night I watched it, the moment I turned my head and saw Tenzin sleeping. All I got from the movie was the power of love.
Today, I watched it again and saw it in a completely different way. I saw the strength in both John and Alicia Nash. The schizophrenia was killing everybody. But it is more a personal problem to John Nash has to fight with it. At the end, it is only he decided to apply a new formula to his mind to ignore his hallucinations and not feed his demons.
I was lucky enough to have someone to fall in love with. Now its gone, but the memory remains. To turn that memory into things that I can keep nicely in my heart or I can mourn about the past is up to me.
I need to keep feeding to keep the bad memories alive. They are not haunting us, we let them do. We assist them. I was responsible for partly letting myself depressed. I m sorry.

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